Teenage Love affair

At the end of my last year as a teenager, I was just experiencing my very first teenage love affair. With an inner vow, first girl, first love, would mean marriage. In love and life, things do not always work out the way you want them to even when you work so hard at them. A young man with so much confidence, ready to take on the world, taking care of his academics, socially accepted, and wouldn't shy away from meeting a young lady. Then, an emerald would come along, crafted not as the conventional blinding figure on the love-lust mountain, but prised in inner beauty clouded by smugs of 'i dnt care' and as life would have it, you find ur 'supposed soul mate' and very first teenage love affair. The script would say you are ready, ready to let go of the ladies and go for the lady, let go of ur flirtatious self and have her like you would want her to have you, for as long as you both desire to be together...bla bla bla...I am going to stop there...I would actually write a book on this...Should have a lot to write about.
For now, does anyone remember their 1st teenage love affair? Are you still in the affair? If not, are you still in touch? Can you get back together if a chance provided itself?Do you feel as though you might not find love stronger than that?....
These are a few questions that have been spurred by that once young love that would have an impact on ur being, what future would be holding out for....
Just like I wish I had gone to a mixed sex high school system, or wished to have gone to high school prom, or wished I was a NERD, I wish to have my first teenage love affair again...Yes, I do. Do the things I did right well, learn from mistakes and do right my wrongs because there is no love as strong as your first teenage love affair( except ofcourse Agape, or long married life of peace that has experienced thin and thick). Let me hear about your first teenage affair, its impact on your being and
life.
Here is Alicia's account of her first teenage affair:

Can't wait to get home
Baby dial your number
Can you pick up the phone
'cause I wanna holla?
Daydreaming about you all day
In school can't concentrate
Want have your voice in my ear
'Til ma comes and says it's too late

'cause the lights are on outside
Wish there was somewhere to hide
'cause I just don't want to say goodbye
'cause you are my baby baby
Nothing really matters
I don't really care
What nobody tell me
I'm gonna be here
It's a matter of extreme importance
My first teenage love affair

Another secret meeting
On the 5th floor stair case
I'm gonna give you this letter
Of all the things I can't say
Want you to be my first, my last, my ending and beginning
I wrote your name in my book
You last name my first
I'm your Mrs.

Hey boy
You know I really like being with you right?
Just hanging out with you is fun
So maybe we can go to first base
Because I feel you
Second base
Want you to feel me too
Third base
Better pump the breaks
Well baby slow down
I gotta go home now
My baby baby
Nothing really matters
I don't really care
What nobody tell me
I'm gonna be here
It's a matter of extreme importance
My first teenage love affair

Only You

When I stop to think,that you wont be there to smile when I wink
I wont be there to see you dressed in all pink
when I blink and you're not there my hearts gonna sink
I cant sleep, cant eat, can't drink
When I think of you gone
A big part of my life's all torn
in pieces and Jesus, I must have mixed right for wrong
For you to come, I'll be twice as nice
I can't stand to pay the price c'mon
I'll do anything to see you come back to me
Don't leave me alone
I'm in need of a home and a girl I'm a live with happily
Together, matter of fact we be, like the fruit from an apple tree
So I'm 'a plead you to come back
Me and you is where the fun's at
We both know that, we love that
We've been there, we've done that
but we both still got a lot left to track c'mon

The Lover of my life
Please do not make me cry
The Lover of my life
Please never ever leave me alone
Please stay with me
Lover of my life

Girl you cannot do this to me
Your whole crew is in for me
They try to make u realize
We're both too simply too tight
They kind of know its smooth right
From a distance they know our love is like a boom mic
And I'd hate to loose my only date to choose
Even Gods creations are all made in twos
So I say we cruise into the way we're supposed to be
girl you know you've gotta flow with me
And so we be the greatest lovers around
We can make a new whole world together
And be loving it now
We can take our love straight to the top
Maintain the same game forever while were making it hot
So do not try to think of breaking up
'Cos I can make it up to you
With all the love I stuff for you
In the middle of my thugs and crew
I still plead for you to stay with me
'Cos Im in love with you,c'mon

I could stay a whole week
without you no sleep
I figured cos my thoughts go deep
Thinking about you
And bringing my heart to the state of mind
Where i know that I'm beginning to woo you
Where its my plea to get you right with me
And I'll wait for you to come cos you truly fit me
and stay together through the weather like Bob and Whitney
An then we shine like the rims of a silver Bentley
You know I never loved no other like you
To hug a mother might do
It will make me show my hearts broken in two
I'll give my life as a token for you
You might not know that I'm choked up
But men I'm still choking it through
You're my wife to be
And what you is, is what Id like to see
Come girl give your life to me
And I'm a fight for the right to be your only man
and if I gotta fight then I'll fight for free.

When I think about you leaving I find myself grieving
Though it seems deceiving I'm still believing girl you'll stay with me forever
And I'll remain humbly kneeling while your heart is healing
Tear drops revealing the way that I'm feeling girl please stay with me forever

Kini Big Deal ( What's the big deal?)

K, I just thought its been a while.Before I start, I have a room to sublet for the summer at 2833 Baycrest Drive, Ottawa ON. Contact me through email-dazedfaze2000@hotmail.com or Facebook for details. Someone once said,"If you have made mistakes, there is always another chance for you. You may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for this thing we call "failure" is not the falling down, but the staying down". I have made in life, numerous mistakes, many that can be called folly but I have chosen this day to wrong my rights...I have wronged a woman I loved and cherish dearly in many ways but one.I am sincerely sorry and apologetic, though I know no amount of these will fix my failings...I have hurt myself, beyond belief and most importantly, I lost the only one who sincerely truthfully loved, cherished and adored me, all because of my pride, ego, selfish, flirtatious being. Being going for counsellings for a couple of weeks now, and if there is one thing I have learned, it is to forgive myself.
A lot has happened to make me question who exactly a friend is.Friends will welcome each other's company and exhibit loyalty towards each other, often to the point of altruism. Their tastes will usually be similar and may converge, and they will share enjoyable activities. They will also engage in mutually helping behaviour, such as exchange of advice and the sharing of hardship. A friend is someone who may often demonstrate reciprocating and reflective behaviours. Yet for many, friendship is nothing more than the trust that someone or something will not harm them.
Now knowing this, I can say I have very few friends, which is a good thing, because I thought I had none. I live life with a principle, the only thing I finally think I got right in all of my many life principles: Never except good from people all the time, when people acted in ways you wouldn't "normally" expect them to, I am not surprised, I feel as though that is how they are suppose to act. When they are good, I am appreciative of this and never forget it. I do not expect people to be nice, I expect acts of wickedness, so when I see good, I give such people utter respect and honour, but hey, you cares what you think.
I will do all I can to, not possibly turn around situations I have wronged,but to help be launchpad for a new start.
Ego is something I have walked around with for most of my life. I have been made conscious of it, but I acted like it wasn't there. I have lost all of it now, so I can say to you all, there is nothing you can do to down me anymore. I will walk around, in the middle of your preying eyes, lashing tongues, gnashing teeth, and clawing fingers.
I have to take summer school. I do not know where the finances will come from but it will be done. NSBE introduced a program called the "4.0 GPA" and I will be participating in this from this summer and I will show that I can be competent academically once again.
This is a fresh new start, a new beginning, new awakening. It is one I am looking forward to with new aplomb.
Special mention to a couple of people who have been of great help in recent times...Dj EAI, Michael Samuel, A-town, Don 1, Lumi Gbagbe, Nosa, Obi, Larry Ola, Osasu, Piriye and anyone else I forgot to mention. Your help will never be forgotten and you can be sure to be rewarded by the one has rewards in its multitude.

Paroles

The weekend frenzy is finally over so I thought it best to come update you on recent happenings. I have been trying to work on a new template for this blog, designed by myself for your viewing pleasure.I hope I can do it as soon as possible, as I am not a professional and it requires a lot on my part, which I am not sure if school work will permit. Talking about school, I finally had my midterm on Friday and it was as bad as I faired, well at least until the grades are out. Somewhere between my last post:"The craze" and this midterm, I heard a guy, Niklesh sold 2 v.i.p tickets to N.E.P.A, after the party was well in the history books. He was able to convince the guy that the party was moved till this weekend. It was a big laugh for me and my buddies(lol) all that day. Later, rumour circulated it was just a joke. I hope so.
Had a big nite out last nite. It was at the New Bayou, a new club where I have made good friends with the management and you can never know what can happen next. I hosted the Central African Student Association(C.A.S.A)'s fund raising initiative tagged,"Unforgettable African Fest", live with Dj's E.A.I and chiggzy. It was indeed a fun nite. There wasn't a lot of people there, but I had enough fun with all those out there. I was though fazed by a moment of craze by the most unlikely person, but I will give God all the glory for the patience he continues to give me. One can only "binu binu", as God will not let me "bo si konga".
Saturday has come and it started on a sad note, not sad, but unwanted note. Main reason was cuz Ella was outta town for the weekend but I think come the end of the weekend I survived. The night I had been most anticipating came though finally, the Back 2 Origin, Nigerian Banquet organized by NSA UOttawa @ UOttawa. It was a well attended show and I personally say a big thank you to all those who came out and ofcourse,all those who thought I did an exceptional job at emceeing the show. I was alongside my main man, Dj E.A.I and we brought down the house(well, so people told us). I now though have to look forward to Eldee, the DON's live concert next week and pray to God to keep me till then and beyond and also make it a massive blowout.
Peace.Love you, P.

The craze

It has been an absolutely fantastic past week. From Thursday, Feb 26th to today, March 5Th, it has been awesome. I can argue I have had more fun packed weeks but there was something different about this one. Maybe it was the buzz and hype of NEPA, or the visit of old friends, making news friends, knowing a friend more, or a full sum of all these things and more. This last week I realised the importance of friendship, the joy of brotherhood and true meaning of joy from deep within. Those who know me though, could argue that my week past was culminated by the eventual victory and goal scoring of my beloved Arsenal, my perennial underachievers but soul mate.
First of all, it was NEPA and the arrival of old friends, the running around, a feeling now seeming very familiar. NEPA, in itself was off the chain. I'm sorry I did not tell you what NEPA was: Never Expect a Party like this Again, a party in its fourth year of running and still very much a mainstay as one of the city of Ottawa's most hyped and attended event. It did not fail this year, as attendees will tell you. From the magnificence of the Carleton Rideau Raceway where it was held, to the kind of red carpet entrance only the Oscars can claim to better, paparazzi flashing cameras everywhere, the most outstanding combination of Disc jockeys from the city alongside one of North America's hypiest DJ in Dj MightyMike from Atlanta and of course the beautiful people who came to this party in the most glowing of outfit and eye catching beauty and class. It cannot be explained with words. I personally had excess fun, had my dance, my time at the door, making sure the party was not disrupted by anyone. I really do not want to drag on with this, I will let pictures speak for themselves.
Visit the web link below to have picture access to NEPA 2009:The re-invention

http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/pages/Ottawa-ON/C-INEN-Organized/26142906860?ref=ts

Arsenal Football Club of England, recorded their first league victory in 5 matches, after 4 consecutive scoreless draws, and it was a welcome victory, praying it becomes the platform for success for the rest of the season and maybe beyond. The manner of the victory was meant to be expected but with Arsenal these days, one can never be too sure.



I can tell anyone who cares to know confidently that I'm NOT the kind of person some individuals have been painting me to be. I really would not care to make any comment on this, but had to because I feel I have let some people who expect more of me down or people who didn't expect to see me with such a behavior, down. I am innocent and will tell you I am not different from the Seun you know. I believe someday the truth will come out and if in truth, you care to know what happened or hear my side of the mind bugling note, you can always do that as I am in no way what it depicts. I will fully say I'm very sorry and apologetic to all parties involved, and I mean all and very willing to work things out with anyone, as far as they are not letting their personal agendas go ahead of them and cloud their judgment, reasoning and pride.
I love women, for who they are and that will never change.

I am saying a lot but I had to say something.

MC kamikaze, the name I carry with me when I'm either emceeing at an event, or hyping a DJ or something else to do with entertainment will be heard at a couple of places live between this day and the next week.
First around the corner, is "Unforgettable African Fest", organized by Central African Students Association at Carleton University. I will alongside Dj E.A.I & Dj Chiggzy at the New Bayou on Friday March 6th. Please come out and support CASA's fund raising initiative for only $5.








Next up is "Back to Origin (B20) by the Ottawa University Nigerian Students Association on March 7th at the Tabaret Hall of their campus. The event will be a combination of an information forum, a banquet dinner (lots and lots of Nigerian cuisine) and excitement performances such as a comedy drama depicting the African culture. Other performances include a fashion show, one mic event, special dance performances and many more. The main focus of the event will be on spreading an awareness of the on-going situations in Nigeria. Tickets are $20 in advance and $25 at the door. Tickets will be sold at the Uni center in the University of Ottawa on Friday this week, Tuesday and Thursday of next week from 9am - 4pm. For further information, please contact IBK (613) 875 2425 or Abu (613) 265 6511 .

The most anticipated event of the year is finally fast approaching. The immiment arrival and performance of Eldee, The Don is here.
When: March 13th
Time: 9PM - 2AM
Place: Barrymores
Price: Regular: CAD$30.00
V.I.P: CAD$50.00



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Hosted by MC kamikaze {Alariwo of Ottawa}